One Minute for sun rise up

It's 5:59,one minute for sun rise up and everyday I watch my self in the mirror.
I don't like what I see sometimes its like I don't belong here. I don't know why.
The sun starts to open, I am taking  breackfast, I feel the went of the sea i'ts so could.. I don't have afraid to die so I take shower in could water.My heart is so frozen that can't distinguish the could of hot.
I need something but life don't want to say to me what I need.I guess I will looking for some answers. Please try to don't get mad with people that you love.Its sucks.If you can't fight went of the sea you need something, don't give up, join to him, paddiling int he same direction, don't forget, the world is round sooner orlater you will get the place you need.
I want to go to the sea, can you wait for me ?
I don't want to go alone but I am but I am afraid that you don't walk with me.
I can't see my self anymore.It's so dark and it's look like everything I am or was to be is fronzen inside me.
Sometimes the world needs an moster not an hero.Maybe I am the monster.
When I as young I dremed to be a hero, flying when I am sad.But life was been bad to with me.I miss you. I need to learn to fly, its somebody out there that want to love me?I guess love can make me fly.
I can't fly.I am stuck in my memories.
I need corage.But I like could water.It's 6.10 morning and I am having the same dream a few weekes. I am walking on the beach and guess who I see swiming in that could water.